September 2009
3 posts
“I wanted everyone else to change, but they didn’t.
That’s when I decided to change,”
There’s so much more to me, then what you see on the outside. I’m in a constant battle with myself, a war. It’s time for a change, Time to change all the mistakes made in the...
Life in Lyrics.<3
“Take me away, to January. I’m done with this year, I’m tired of everyone here. I Just need some time alone, Before I’m ready to come back home, There’s gotta be something else out there for me…”
“If you here this wherever you are, Just know I need you here, I need you near me now.”
...
August 2009
16 posts
Woke up early, cleaned.
Then the party started, that was so much fun, The pimp hat was epic.
Only two people from my school, 3 people from other schools. Still pretty awesome.
I love cassy<3 She totally made the party amazing.
:3
Then my brother showed up right before Zac left, I tackled him
So, Let's Sit Around and Talk About How Lame We...
Shake and Shout-
It’s 8:14a.m.;;
My cousin can’t make it to my party, cause he has to help his sister move. >.>;;
That kinda really sucks, Jen can’t go either, and so can’t alot of people, but hopefully it’ll still be really fun. I’m sitting on the downstairs table listening to Stereo Skyline, <3
Winnie the Pitbull is barking. :D
For once,...
“when cats have sex the male cats dick is too fat so it ruins that females...”
– Bram
Carter: Never Snort yogurt. :]
Hayley: o.e
Carter: x]]bad idea xD
Hayley: You snorted yogurt??XDD
Carter: xDDDyes.
”Do you know how much you meant to me? Oh no Do you know I still carry the memories? Oh no Did you know that for me letting go wasn’t easy? Oh no, no you don’t”
I’m thinking about life, and how this year has changed dramatically. Everything that has happended, and new firends that have been made, and friends that have been lost.
Sometimes, All you need to do is sit...
“We could learn a lot from crayons:
some are sharp, some are pretty,
some are...”
"Fighting the Lie that Giving Up is The Way."
Pain swells up in my chest as I push back the aganozing nightmares, the memories. I push back each and every stinging tear, hoping to appear strong on the outside, so no can see the burdens I carry, and the pain that lives inside me.
Living each day in fear of my own mind, my own room, my own self. The hurt I can’t handle, the fear pricking at me like a...
So, There are good people in this world! Shocker.
Sooooo! I wasp utting the wheelchair into the back of the car, adn this man walks up and walks past, he then turns around and grabs one side of the wheel chair and helps me lift it into the car.
:3
and then I go, “Thank you so much, sir.”
and he goes.
“I’m only doing the right thing, Have a good day,” and walks away.
I was like.
O:
Hayley: omg. so fish don’t have sex.
Jen: then how do they make other fishes
Hayley: ejaculation. :3
Jen: wtf is that
hayley: when a mommy and daddy fishie lvoe each other very much, the mommy fishie squirts out eggs, and the daddy fishie squirts out sperm.:3
Jenn: weirddd
"I'm Not Worth Any Tears."
I’m not sure why I’m actually depressed this time, I guess I just need sometime to be laone and to think. I feel worthless, and disgraceful. I feel as though the world has jsut collapsed on me, and the sad part is…
I have no idea why.
Someone please take away my nightmares, my thoughts, my tears, and every horror that I’m stricken with through this path of mistakes, we...
Venting.
I know that it’d be difficult but I can’t help falling asleep thinking about it. why can’t you just tell me if you don’t want it, instead of playing with my heart like this. If you didn’t want me to fall hard for you, we never should of kissed…
You never should of put your arm around me, or rested your head on mine, you never should of told me I was Cute, or...
"They Can't Turn Their Back and Run."
Today, We went to the boardwalk, that’s always fun.! Saw Ben Prandini, -_-; Flipped Ben Prandini Off, Then hugged him alter, Then almost punched him XD. Saw Josh Corbett, Hung out with him for awhile.
Bugged Clio, ^_^;. (Like always. :D.)
Listened to Music.
Played in the Ocean.
Yup, The Normal.
Oh, Cody texted, I didn’t respond for 20 minutes. -_-; he’s now not texting.
...
“She’s a Question Without Answers, Who Feels Like Falling Apart..”
"It Was Only a Kiss..."
As you all know, *cough* Jen. *cough.*
I’m in santa cruz with my bestest friend ever,Clio. && We went to the boardwalk, and while waiting in line who to show up but a blonde boy, with lovely mitchell davis style hair. So after a few moments of making eye contact, Clio yelled, “Hey Dude!” about am illion times. -_-;
&& Then he got on the ride, and that was the...
July 2009
5 posts
"I'm Not Crazy, I'm Just a Little Unwell."
In this dreadful year, I’ve discovered that there are people that are going to hurt you, i’ve found out not to trust people, or males, for that matter, as easily as I once did.
I’ve discovered that not everyone is accepting, I’ve discovered teh truth about myself, I know I’m not crazy, and I know I’m not as messed up as everyone thinks I am.
I’ve met...
“Square Pegs won’t fit in round holes, but why do we presume that thisis...”
"Let's Get Freaky Now."
Just came back from Monteray, Wow, wasn’t that terrifc, well more like terrifically cold. Anyway, Summer’s going, erm, well bad, but that’s to expected.
Going to hottopic soon, going to get a new outfit, how fun! :) Bugging Jen, Like Always, and listening to music.
Waiting to call Matt, Like always, and hoping he didn’t have to work too late today. Anyway, that’s...